I hope you know CPR , because you take my breathe away ♥ .

[c/]

.Sunday, May 31, 2009

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All i have to say is that i miss HIM loads.
HIM=JIAFU
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
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I miss JiaFu
I miss JiaFu
jo asked me to give up on him.
when he had done all those things to me.
but i just dont want to.
and the reason is simple.
cos i love him.
its not just a simple love that i am saying here.
its more than what you can think of.
if you dont know, than that means one thing.
you had never experienced love b4.
i had and i loved it, cos its addictive !!!
i hope that he will know that and i will still give him time..
for his own stuff.

andandand where should i go this tuesday?

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.Thursday, May 28, 2009

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Nothing feels right when you're not with me.

I have thoughts of eating panadol+alcohol.

And with that, it will cause death.

I have taken 3 panadol extra for no reason.

Some of my friends and classmate asked why i ate panadol.

I lied that i had headache and stomach pain, which i obviously dont have.

Each time i swallow the panadol xtra, i felt damn tired and stomach got cramp..

But than i never regret it, cos it was my own choice.

And the other problem is that b!tch.

She is damn irritating.

She is so damn bossy lorhx.

So what if people dun want to tell u stuff?

Its not your fucking business right?

People cut bangs is people's problem.

Who said that you have the rights to care about people's stuff?

No one lorhx.

Even the monitress dont like you.

One day, you will get your revenge.

And i promise you that it will be painful,

ans i MEAN it.

For what you have done to hurt people in 1N6.

Watch out TOH YAN JUN.

You will be in trouble.

Cos you did alot of shit stuff.

And, i cut myself or eat panadol xtra to kill myself is not your problem.

Its my Life, and i can do what i wanna do with it.

And stop bothering about you and your ex-stead.

Its so long over already lorhx.

And dont boast larhx.

Seeing you makes me puke.

Stop being so despo and GET A LIFE.

Panadol,Panadol,Panadol

I love you as much as i love my bf

I need you as much as i need my bf

AND I MEAN IT.

Cos it is part of my LIFE:)

I will keep on loving you till i die..

You're unable to be replaced by another guy i guess...

Or any other part of anybody else.

I MISS YOU LOADS, AND I MEAN IT.

I wanna share your burden

Cos i dun wanna see you there,

Being pressed down by all your problems

I will always be there for you.

And i hope that you know it.

I love you baby:))

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.Monday, May 25, 2009

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Haiizx..
dunno why, ive been crying since last thursday....
WHY?
its not school problems, or home problems..
its my relationship problems.
i guess being with a malay guy can be hard..
actually i dun mind the pain, as long as you are there.
i dun mind the suffering through out this period of time,
cos i loved you. And that love is hard to come by ever..
u are the first guy tat i had given all my love to.
u start to give me the cold shoulder , and i dun mind.
cos you are my most precious guy.
its ok if u wanna lie to me. i oso dun mind..
as long as you love me.

im now in a situation.
that no one can help.
th only person is you.
all u have to do is to spend just a little time,
telling me how much you treasure me, or just say ilove you.
my bestfriend told me to give up on you,
but why should i do that?
ppl always say ' follow your heart'
i did, and i found happiness.
you are indeed priceless to me
nothing can replace you...
infact, nobody could.

Being with you is the happiest thing that i had done so far..
in my life, which i had been living on for 13 yrs, 5 months, 21days, 18 hours and still counting.
at any day, hour, minute, or even seconds,
u could just disappear out of my life.
and of cos i dun wan that to happen.
i miss you so much that i cry, and my tears are drying up soon.
if you could just read this post, maybe something will change..
even the smallest changest could make a big impact.

i just want you to know that,

The day i stop loving you, is the day i close my eyes forever.

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.Thursday, May 21, 2009

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Without you, im just like

a rainbow with no colours,

a flower with no scent,

a bird with no wings,

an angel with no wings,

and a love with no half of its other part.

Now i know twhy they say loving people like you is hard,

gives me alot pain and had to suffer alot.

But than, on second thoughts,

i thought of the times when you gave me happiness,

those kind of feeling..

is hard to come by.

Its like once in a life time.

it really is..

and im not lying..

Just last til your birthday is over and im happy with that..

or even longer.. and that would be the happiest thing in my life

i love you loads..

i know im not your perfect one..

i'll try to be the best of me..

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Back to posting i guess..
School days are getting boring..
tis whole week is LOVE SMSS WEEK..
nidda do the CIP project..
its like so uber lame...
tml going out of school and give out flyers..
im bringing th camera..hahaha
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just now had tuition..
walked home with amanda..
went to my mother's room..
thn amanda called HIM..
when i heard his voice..
i cried..
until damn jialat..
than just now amanda say ever since i went to ST MARGARETS SEC SCH
i have been crying.. every month, week, day..
these days have been hard for me to get by..
i am trying to get over life..
but the time just past slowly..
i suffered alot.. thn other ppl i guess..

; should i go back, being emo? or should i not?

IMISSHIDAYAT

JIAFUAHJIAFU

why are you doing this to me?

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.Tuesday, May 19, 2009

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hey ppl:)
sry for not posting for quite a damn long time..
MYE IS FINALLY OVER
now can enjoy..
cant wait for th sch days to be over..
thn can go out..
hahaha.
okok..
Last friday i went to vivo with johanna and alicia:))
we go play water.. at the 4th level.. we're still small kids..
hahaha. than got this malay guy..
go disiao alicia..
he say alicia is Mas Selemat's wife..
than say she is 'Mas Alicia Selemat Bin Kastari'
LOL
than we got changed.. thn go arcade play..
its like damn long since i played the para machine..
damn nice worhx..
aft that we go watch Star Trek
is damn nice lorhx..
but th sad thing is that baby:) wasnt there..
thn we went off to shopping..
than around 5 we went to take taxi.
alicia and johanna cabbed to Yew Tee
while i cabbed home..
Ytd i went out with Lihuei and Jermaine
we went to serene for breakfast..
saw HIM !!
was damn pai seh..
thn we cabbed to vivo..
i paid the fare.. haha
thn i go shopping..
i bought 2 top..
nice nice :))
hahaha
thn go KAP for lunch..
than lihuei alighted me at th bus stop.
thn i 961ed home..
Today i went for th NPCC swearing in..
saw HIM agn..
pai seh agn..
he look damn cute..
no wonder he ______
LOL
shall end everything here..
blog soon agn.

IHEARTHIDAYAT:)
JIAFU IS BEING LOVED..
IMISSSYOU

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.Friday, May 1, 2009

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hey yo ppl.
sry i didn't came to post for th past few days..
cos of th MYE.. bt actually i didn't study at all
haha
so.. these few days i didnt do much..

30th march
ytd went to tiong wit amanda for lunch
met Huii Loo, Kimbella and Kaesandra thr.
lunch-ed at long john silver..
Huii Loo and Kimbella di siao me sia..
they at long john silver laughed so loud sia
thn th ppl like staring at us..
giv those kinda lan jiao face
aft tht we go to 'Comics Connection'
look at th superjunior badges.
aft tht i go to 'Think Tank' thr buy new ear sutd
cos i lost th old one :((
aft i bought th stud i tried to put in my ear bt thn too big..
so must extend some more..
thn i followed amanda cos she wna buy her Farenheit CD
aft tht i went to chameleon and bought th earsticks and put all in my ear..
thn went to bubble tea shop thr buy blue coral ice blend
for myself and greenapple ice blend for Ms Huili
i thn wna go more thn words look for things to buy
i bought 2 comb. dark brown wit rainbow patterns
and pink wit loads of hearts :))
i paid liaox thn went dwn.
gt tis stall sell honey sticks.. My fave !!
thn i saw Huii Loo wit Kimbella and Kaesandra
Huii loo tell me tht whn she buy th stick frm th auntie
she ask if gt sugar
thn th auntie say 'Got sugar? Its natural..'
thn Huii Loo nt happy sia.
i went to buy 5, amanda 5
shared money and pay th auntie..
walked to mrt and take th one towards outram..
laughed on th mrt.. by th jokes frm kimbella and Huii loo
they alighted at outram
i and amanda got dwm at tanjong pagar..
we faster walked to th tuition thr..
during tuiion tht time i was smsing hidayat:)
didnt do th work tht th teacher gave..
he said he wanted to come find me.,
bt thn cant cos very far...
nxt time lorhx..
aft tuition i go hme..
used com thn brought amanda to th bus stop
i brought my cousin along..
thn i buy ice cream for all 3 of us
we walked and ate at th same time..
at th bus stop hidayat say he'll call me
thn whn i wna reply him, he called
so i picked up lorhx..
we chatted for awhile..
thn he say why i emo..
i nvr ok..
i faster walked home wit my cousin..
i go hme liaox thn he call me:)
i thn ask him call my hse cos my hp goin bo money liaox..
he very cute lehx..
ask if my mother at home..
he called my home.. we chatted abt 40 mins..
thn he say he use his housephone call me cos his hp going no money
hahaha.. thn whn he called, my sis picked up th phone
thn he tot tht it was me..
he said we sounded alike.
thn we talked..
i remembered if im nt wrong..
he said he is not despo
cos he hav somebody already..
tht was me.. LOL
thn we hung up n each other
cos we got reasons
his was his parents
mine was th phone no batt
haha
thn i went to slp aft tht

1st MAY !!
Today is th first of may
woke up quite early today
couldn't go back sleep..
so i took my ipod and listened..
thn i fell asleep..
thn was woken up by hidayat's:) sms
steady worhx.. HAHA
thn i go on th comp aft my father left th house..
thn i go shower..
today hidayat:) go malaysia..
tml thn came back..
i miss his i ____ you smses..
so hav to wait til tml lorhx..
miss him alot..
and tkx for being my 'spy', Joel
im gonna end everything soon..
will be going M.I.A. soon
buh-byyess

I HEART JIAFU
Hidayat:)

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